2010

Hmm I don't know what to think of 2009. I just know that it started off absolutely terrible, and I am so thankful 2010 did not follow in it's footsteps. 2009 almost flew by too fast for me to even reflect back on it. I can't decide whether it was a good or bad year; and if I were to stack up all the things that made me smile vs. all the things that made me cry.. it would probably be a standoff... because I would've probably kept an unfair tally and weighed the bad things more heavily.

Anyway. Moving on to the next decade.

New years resolutions are such a great concept.. for those who follow through with them. In my case, it has been the trend that making resolutions is practically setting myself up for failure. We need to change that.

Some of the many resolutions I made at the start of 2009:
- Lose weight
- Get straight A's
- Be neater and more organized
- Control my mood swings
- Quit being loud/obnoxious
- Budget my money more wisely
- Be a better girlfriend
- Be a better person, in general

Ok, so I put way too much on my plate. I'm gonna have to say they are all a work-in-progress. Maybe one of my resolutions should be to stick to my resolutions. Seriously, this year I will really put forth an honest effort to accomplish all the goals I had set for myself... except the one about aiming for straight A's because I only have one class, and it is pass/fail (no more worrying about grades ever!). Everything else could definitely use some improvement.

This year, the resolution at the top of my priority list is this: To be more decisive and proactive. And I don't mean that in the "what am I gonna do today" sense, but more of in the "what am I gonna do with my life" aspect. I have a good feeling that many things will all fall into place this year. The most important decision I have to make is where I'm going to live post-graduation (a topic which will be addressed in a future entry); because naturally, that will influence the outcome of my career, relationship, and friendships.. like a domino effect. Gotta cut out all this doubt and hesitation in my life.

Another resolution I tacked onto the exhausting list is to think positively. It gets pretty tiring always having the preconceived notion that all my plans are going to fall through and that everything I do is subpar. Time to start looking up.

Happy new year everyone.